UPCOMING NEW YEAR..UPCOMING VENTURES!!!!

DECEMBER is going to end up.time is ticking away...5 days remain..i'm still alone...no big deal...i intense to be..in short, for me..being without a boyfren doesnt mean i've been left on the shelf..consider it as a 'quality me' time to regroup and focus on selfishy fulfilling my own needs. (YES I DO HAVE VERY SELFISH NEED).....

I WANT TO BE KNOWLEDGEABLE BECAUSE TO BE EDUCATED
I WANT TO BE EDUCATED BECAUSE TO BE RICH
I WANT TO BE RICH BECAUSE I WANT TO GIVE.....

TO GIVE TO MY CREATOR
TO GIVE TO MY MOTHER
TO GIVE TO MY FAMILY
TO GIVE TO MY PEOPLE
TO GIVE TO MY COMMUNITY
TO GIVE TO MY COUNTRY
TO GIVE TO MY WORLD
TO GIVE TO MYSELF......

our life expands because we are free to grab hold of more opportunities without any love-life considerations diverting my attention...

its almost 4 months i had left this page...seems so quiet..i do really buzy..since last eidul fitri....right after finished my long holiday..i've been awarded a fellowship from Japan International Cooperation Association to attend 6 weeks training at National Institute Metrology of Thailand..its such a sudden thing for me..a good thing is, to represent my beloved country, MALAYSIA..and the other counterparts was from vietnam,indonesia,mongolia,sri lanka,philiphines,laos,nepal,india,fiji,bangladesh,myanmar,cambodia and pakistan..we had a hilarious time together..everyday travel go and back with the same van for 2 hours..jokes and humors...i never stop laughing...i do enjoice.!!!.despite we came from different races,religions...but we do have the same heart..beat at the same rate..as a human!!!!miss u guys...
i've obtained lots of new knowledge that applicable for my field..laser.

right after coming back from thailand..there were stacks of job waiting for me..undisputable,i have to finish all those things before the upcoming new year..the most fatigue was the Asia Pacific Metrology Programme that had been held at KLCC last few weeks ago..everything going smooth..despite i'm just the person in charge for my department's posters. meaningfull part is, i had been given opportunity to join all the Technical Committee of Length Meetings...it was really invaluable experienced for me..i got chance to meet up all delegates from around the world and know-how all the latest things in length standard.

then, i was knocking down by an unexpected news about my former academic supervisor, Assoc.prof. mohd khairi saidin..who passed away yesterday morning after a week in coma...he's experienced with kidney's cancer that he never expect to have...i felt really regret couldnt visit him...i do plan to go this new year holiday...but we never know the written of unknown..
i noticed, he left lots of memories..his name is written on all my published papers,journals, thesis..and it will be there forever..flashback time...my BSc..i was in his class of semiconductor physics..the lecturer that i'm afraid of..very coherent person...during MSc, under his supervision, then i know he's a good person and easy to cooperate..i'll pray for him..Al-Fatihah..peace there forever with ALLAH blessing..AMIN...

so..today..for those who celebrate christmas.it is christmas eve...and for me..its time to complete my TO-DO LIST NO.2....i have to gather up my mind and soul..sounds hard..yes it is..i need strong enthusiasm...

then..here the ventures come.....i have to go to defeat them...WASSALAM

The written of unknown

sometimes..i've been thinking...am I the one in the list...the list of successfull people...
along my life journey..i've been through all kind of obstacles...just for one dream...
i never looked back..despite rarely i'm failed and hailed...always believe of second chance because there is no turning back time...learn from the past just to be the best...how often we wish for another chance, to make a fresh beginning...it does not take a new day to make a brand new start...it only takes a deep desire, to try with all our heart....

all together my efforts...i do and done.....always wish the bless from Allah...to him i lean my hope...he's the one who write the written of unknown...

vivid in my mind

actually i really don't know how to express my feeling...all mixed up...felt being undermined,isolated and misunderstood...

yeah..people always make their assumption as they see the things physically..not spiritually...that's how the judgement being applied...they never let their SQ give the option in defining the things...as quote...'thinks out of the box'...

as for me..all those things, i take it positively...and make me stronger...take it as a challenge...since for the last 2 months i almost forgot my personal matters...the priority goes to ***but now i realize..my dream should be on the top!!!

truly..i never wish for a compliment...frankly done it...but when sometimes being isolated and undermined....felt like being manipulated...

why people always do something just because of something...

em...sigh..now its SYAABAN...tomorrow is nisfu syaaban...hopping the peace of mind..

be strong..keep move on...

ITS JUST A NUMBER!!!

its my beday!!!wow, there's only half an hour left, and i become 27 years and 1 day olds....its that much..hu huhu....doesnt matter..its just a number...

starting from 27th may midnite untill now i've been counting my beday wishes..its all in sequences

1) sis zila 2) jihah 3) niniey 4)muni 5) Tie 6) Aliph 7)LizaChem 8) Rabia 9)Liza smdi 10) sam
11)sis rani 12) armyliani 13) tasha 14) jee 15) rozaki

he he he and just now its less than my age...(27)..i'm not that popular? he he he...actually do i care? emmmmm?.....
i never wish myself...so how do i care other people wishes...but i do appriciate those wishes...deep in my heart...how luvly they are..u guys are rock!!!! thanx yaaa....i'll keep all those wishes either in my hp inbox or webpage..as long as its not overload....

well, to be honest, i've never been celebrate with a beday cake!!! but i do get beday gifts from my frens n sis...thanx guys...u guys rock!!! (again)..so in conjunction with that, i'm celebrating myself....owhhh that sounds sorry....no, i'm not, actually starting a couple of years before, when its my beday, i do buy something for myself..laptop, perfume, sport shoes, handset...and for this 27 beday...its was 5800 express music...:)

for the last 2 days i've been attending the nanotechnology awareness seminar...the outcome from that seminar...its really embark me with a new enthusiasm to complete my goals!!!! (after a little bit frustation before)

so...to-do list on 27th may 2009

1) IELTS
2) complete & submit surrey application form
3) discuss project with prof jeremy
4) Mosti

uhhhh..its sound complicated....yeah it is...i need a strong heart and genius mind....can i?

wow ...its 1 minutes to midnite....i'm now 27 and 1 day old..hu hu hu..i better stop...bubai

CURE OF MY HEART

HILMY ISKANDAR AND HAZMI ISKANDAR....they both were my luvly nephews..since they moved to penang...we damn miss them so much!!!

ITS ALL ABOUT ALBERTA

well, talking about Alberta, it was my 2nd dream place to be, of course the 1st always be Mecca.

I started dreaming for Alberta on December 2008, while i was cutting the 2008 calendar...i was attracted on the photos and started to browse where were its cames from...yeah its in the province of Alberta located on Canadian Rockies, consist of Banff National Park and Jasper National Park.

the natural peacefull place, shows the masterpeice of Allah S.A.W. the dawning morning, cascade waterfalls, cool mountains, calm lakes, green woods, wow...no words can describe...no wonder it's be the most popular location for movies shooting.

emmm....i've been dreaming to be there someday somehow...

check out a little cool pics of Alberta.

ITS DELAYED AGAIN

i'm wondering why was the result keeps delayed all time. i'm sick of surfing the website every morning but still da same..some rumors said, there were something fishy just about to happen..well, i'm just hopping.there's nothing else i can do. go with the flow...even the other side of the globe, someone is waiting for me...how to manage it, if i'm not gonna make it..hu hu hu...

I'M BACK...

its been a month, no new entry..seems like i 've been really bz...with life matter actlly...heheheh..so..just now everytin is going to settle down...opss..is not about marriage ok..its all about my mission...last march i'm just graduated from UTM...after a year..a little bit tough..actually 3 days before my convo..i've been seated for scholarship interview..despite i'm not doing well during the interview..but i'm still the hopper!!! i've been trapped in terms of my future plans...its all my fault..i'm too concerntrate about the proposal. em...my promise to Prof Jeremy Allam from surrey university...!!!!after convocation, i promise him to attach all the transcript and cert...till now..zero thing done!!! need to wait the result to come out this 15 April...

LEMON CHEESE CAKE IN DA MORNING

already 4.30 a.m...i'm still awake...in front my notebook, keep surfing and exploring my facebook..its really fascinated browsing kak niza pics..the splended snow,autumn at liverpool and the trips to geneva, holland,scotland,italy...hi hi hi..oppps...my stomach need something la...he he..its time for lemon cheese cake..at 4.30 a.m...hu hu..i'm totally screw up my own diet!!!!!

MY LITTLE STRAWBERRY BOOK

Today I got an order from my supervisor to pack up my things and move to bigger room…I used to spend my time to pack up everything….until I noticed the old strawberry book….it was mine since 1997….wahhhh already 12 years..at that time I am 15 years old…yeah.…in form 3….at first I created that book for my frens at Dato’ Ismail Secondary School …just to keep in touch becoz I got an offer to further my studies at MARA Junior Science College…Since then I used to keep that strawberry book..wherever I am…wherever I go…until I complete my bachelors and masters degree ..its keep to refresh all the old memories..that book mean so much for me…its full of wishes, address, names,birthday belongs to my fren along my life journey…and its comes from around the world…emm..its really touching when I read all the dedication…I named it strawberry book just because the wrapping paper was so strawberriesssss….even now its really look to old…but I will bring it along my journey…the next one…

===NO WEEKEND==

em..tonite i'm keep surfing n browsing the best uni for photonics research..now i'm realized..to start all this doctorate matter..the most important is what you wanna do..starting with major field n go thru the minor one...hows the research give benefit to global community..especially my own country aka development country..at this time there were 4 country in my list

1) United Kingdom (Surrey,Strathclyde,southampton)
2) New Zealand(Otago)
3)Canada(ottawa)
4)Switzerland (ETH)

the next step...i'm going to find a supervisor that match my research field...em...i loved physics...since my masters degree also in physics n majoring in laser and electro-optics..so..i'm going to further my Phd also in physics..photonics field...but its more to engineering science.when we talk about photonics its sound so complicated..its all about photon n photon..
thanks GOD..since I subscribe the IEEE (institute of electrical and electronics engineer) and IEEE LEOS(laser and electro-optics society)..i've got lot of info bout photonics..em..I also can download all the journal related to my field..i think i've to study a lot regarding all this doctorate prepareration...yeah...i need to prepare for my proposal..last week i went to education consultantcy..they ask me to complete my CV and Proposal ASAP..o..its feel like my weekend no longer sleepy sleepy day lah...i have to..yeah..to achieve the dream..needs sacrifice..