Wrapping Up the 2010

While waiting, its worth for me to have a bit touch on this page, since its been idle for months.Tomorrow will be a public holiday for Malaysian. Thanx to our Harimau Malaya Soccer Team for giving us this holiday!!!2011 is coming, its time to wrapping up the 2010 despite there is nothing to wrap actually...:( Yeah that sounds sobs.The "good" thing is I gained more weight this year.Ha ha ha..that was the easiest thing I'm capable of doing. And I'm also having lots of hilarious time by spending the money all over the year. My social life also a bit declining this year. I'm not interested to have any of those loafing and loitering. Not attending any of wedding invitations. Folks, sorry for that. I'm purchased a lots of new novel and need to finish them or I got something else to do hahaha..excuses?In fact..I'm just ended up on the bed and keep dreaming. But all the while I kept thinking those unrealized dream and its will be continuously remain the same.

I WONT STOP

i wont i wont i wont!!!!!!!i keep walking toward my dream despite there's a lot of things waiting...
this journey is scarifying,challenging, teasing,hurting...to reach the end, i do pick the wrong paths, but then i turned back, i do slip away,but then i woke up, its just like crawling in the dark searching for the lights...

HERE AND THERE

i do my first mistake for 2010 = frustration+regret = padan muka!!! i really dont know why i let it go just like that..golden chance...TPM..i'm sorry..sorry for myself...but then...those things keep vivid just for few weeks...stack of works help me to forget everything.a new challenge comes to me on mid jan until end of feb, to conduct APMP.L-K4, piloted by Taiwan, hosted by Japan, participated by various country,a key comparison of diameter standards..they do help me out of misery, but then put me in tiring...everyday i end up until 7.30pm in the lab...very tiring..then, end of feb, right after its all over...new journey has come..the proficiency testing conducted by standards malaysia, piloted by us (NML-SIRIM) and me..was the officer in-charge for calibration of gauge block..that sounds easy, but i'm the one who's responsible for everything.it starts with pre-implentation workshop on 3rd march, despite its a bit riot that day...one of my colleague has spark on his presentation...participated labs didn't satisfied with new proposed measurement range..i do pity on him..but we try our best to support everybody..and thanks to Allah s.w.t. mine was ok..even i just straightly present., no script was prepared..its ok, as always i'm not a good presenter..thats why i'm a bit doubt to be a lecturer...that was ongoing tasks until end of this year, then me and my senior metrologist work on our malfunctioned green laser , a part of automatic gauge block interferometer system..we opened up that laser and do some troubleshooting..and we quite satisfied with our finding...the problem might comes from high voltage power supply..we already ask a quotation form cvi:melles griot singapore..then a new challenge beguns...i've been nominated to be a guest researcher for CCL-K11 for optical frequency/wavelength standards that will be held on 19th-24th April 2010, at NIMJ,Tsukuba, Japan...seem like I'm going to work like machine again..there's a lot of things to be prepared..hand carry application (to be in the cabin) of Iodine-Stabilized He-Ne Laser to Malaysia Air Lines,ATA Carnet, laser characterization and bla bla bla...stack of works......asking myself..do i have to neglect my dream then?

WIN

"Win"

Dark is the night
I can weather the storm
Never say die
I've been down this road before
I'll never quit
I'll never lay down, mm
See I promised myself that I'd never let me down

I'll never give up
Never give in
Never let a ray of doubt slip in
And if I fall
I'll never fail
I'll just get up and try again

Never lose hope
Never lose faith
There's much too much at stake
Upon myself I must depend
I'm not looking for place or show
I'm gonna win

No stopping now
There's still a ways to go, oh
Someway, somehow
Whatever it takes, I know
I'll never quit, no no
I'll never go down, mm, mm
I'll make sure they remember my name
A hundred years from now

When it's all said and done
My once in a lifetime will be back again
Now is the time
To take a stand
Here is my chance
That's why I'll...

Mmm, I'm gonna win

DAWNING MORNING AT SURREY...JUST A DREAM?

despite i do have a time to finish my proposal..i do spent it out just to think..keep thinking...it hard to start the thing that deep in my heart...until i slept away together with those dreams...a dawning morning at surrey...
all the things keep running and circulating in my head...hard to define it...my dreams is to high..i do have the spirit..the intense...
chances come over..and passed by..why i let myself blocking away my goals...why? why?
now here comes another chance for me...please me...please grab it...why i'm still stranded myself...please go through the path of your life...thats what you wanna be...
big heart..big dream..Ya Allah...against YOU i lean my hope..please help me with this things...i need YOU to get through this...give me the led..