I WONT STOP

i wont i wont i wont!!!!!!!i keep walking toward my dream despite there's a lot of things waiting...
this journey is scarifying,challenging, teasing,hurting...to reach the end, i do pick the wrong paths, but then i turned back, i do slip away,but then i woke up, its just like crawling in the dark searching for the lights...

HERE AND THERE

i do my first mistake for 2010 = frustration+regret = padan muka!!! i really dont know why i let it go just like that..golden chance...TPM..i'm sorry..sorry for myself...but then...those things keep vivid just for few weeks...stack of works help me to forget everything.a new challenge comes to me on mid jan until end of feb, to conduct APMP.L-K4, piloted by Taiwan, hosted by Japan, participated by various country,a key comparison of diameter standards..they do help me out of misery, but then put me in tiring...everyday i end up until 7.30pm in the lab...very tiring..then, end of feb, right after its all over...new journey has come..the proficiency testing conducted by standards malaysia, piloted by us (NML-SIRIM) and me..was the officer in-charge for calibration of gauge block..that sounds easy, but i'm the one who's responsible for everything.it starts with pre-implentation workshop on 3rd march, despite its a bit riot that day...one of my colleague has spark on his presentation...participated labs didn't satisfied with new proposed measurement range..i do pity on him..but we try our best to support everybody..and thanks to Allah s.w.t. mine was ok..even i just straightly present., no script was prepared..its ok, as always i'm not a good presenter..thats why i'm a bit doubt to be a lecturer...that was ongoing tasks until end of this year, then me and my senior metrologist work on our malfunctioned green laser , a part of automatic gauge block interferometer system..we opened up that laser and do some troubleshooting..and we quite satisfied with our finding...the problem might comes from high voltage power supply..we already ask a quotation form cvi:melles griot singapore..then a new challenge beguns...i've been nominated to be a guest researcher for CCL-K11 for optical frequency/wavelength standards that will be held on 19th-24th April 2010, at NIMJ,Tsukuba, Japan...seem like I'm going to work like machine again..there's a lot of things to be prepared..hand carry application (to be in the cabin) of Iodine-Stabilized He-Ne Laser to Malaysia Air Lines,ATA Carnet, laser characterization and bla bla bla...stack of works......asking myself..do i have to neglect my dream then?